Bleeding Love
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Posted:Feb 14, 2009 5:25 am
Last Updated:Feb 21, 2009 8:20 am 4023 Views
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Happy Valentine's day everyone.
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"I got to believe in myself, to make things become possible."
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Posted:Feb 13, 2009 5:34 pm
Last Updated:Sep 27, 2009 2:54 am 3851 Views
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I wanted to grow but I don't want to grow in the judgment of others. I wanted to grow in my own will and in my own time. But how can I not be interfered? This world is such a chaotic place. Girded with so much greed, envy and jealousy. It's a kind of disease that is excessively prevalent. That no medicine has been discovered to cure this illness. Jealousy, I must say, the most deadly, contagious disease. How am I suppose to grow in this kind of world? With my bare feet on the ground and the piercing gaze of my surroundings. With my naked body and the intense coldness outside. With my innocent eyes and all the cruelties in the neighborhood. And so I started walking with only a shoe. One foot to experience how it is to hide from all the scornful and judgmental society and the other one barefoot still, open for derision. I began to wear clothes but the same coldness still entered my entire body. I have covered my eyes but I can still see through it the bitterness of life.
I have once questioned myself, “Will I be able to surpass these tests?” I was then caught off guard, with no answer in my head because for a moment I became weak and fragile. I was struck by the possibility that I might not be able to battle them all. Yes, My name is Nadine. But I possessed no magic. Not a single trick that can tear down worthy opponents. How I wish, Life is that simple. We laugh if we want to, we want things and get them in just a blink of an eye, using that magical wand, life will be better. However, Life is not that simple. We get things because we toil for it, we work hard for something that we want. We do not achieve our dreams simply because we cast a spell to make it come true. Now I am starting think, that maybe, just maybe, abracadabra works in a different way.
Like a computer, I always want to reformat my life. Upgrade it to the latest version. Upgrade it to a new operating system. However, the more I want to do the upgrade the more it becomes so complicated. There are just certain things I don’t want to leave behind. There are things that no matter what, no matter how, I can’t save myself from the pain it will give me the moment I would completely ignore them. Then after all we are not like computers. No disc can change our lives. But we, ourselves, are capable of changing the course of our lives.
Well I guess, About time to disregard magic. Because no magic can ever change the path we ought to traverse. The road that we want to pass through depends exactly on the choice that we have.
to be continued
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Posted:Feb 11, 2009 7:03 am
Last Updated:Mar 17, 2010 6:55 pm 3819 Views
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you: please take care, be safe, and know you're on my mind and I'll be thinking of you.
I'll miss you.
me: why?what's with the I'll miss you?
you: i wont be around for a long time...a year or so.
i have to go hon.. remember what I said.. i'll miss you
It is just so sad when you don't know what's going on and someone said goodbye and you're not prepared for everything, you are not prepared to cry, you are just way too surprised, you did not expect someone's going to leave. Yes, I am not prepared for change yet. I was just talking about change in my last entry, didn't I? I was just talking how hard it is to take part of the changes around us. But there, that was so fast. It did the counterattack in a matter of minutes.
Maybe, this is meant to happen.
nothing in this world is permanent. change is inevitable. we really have to say our goodbyes to the persons and things we love.
We have to. I have learned it the hard way,though. but they remain on our thoughts, don't they?
maybe its bound to happen, for us to miss it.
This is what teaches us to grow. Telling us that there's life outside our circle that needs us. We might be leaving them but then it doesnt mean that they are of no use to us anymore or we have no use to them but rather our connection has to grow and let others know our purpose of coming in their lives.
I believe this one is just like one of Robert Frost's quotes: ...life will go one no matter what.
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WHAT IS THIS?
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Posted:Feb 8, 2009 6:59 am
Last Updated:Jul 2, 2010 12:02 am 4182 Views
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Heaps of devastating catastrophe blocked my sight. Callously throwing away each of the things that caused distraction. Slowly, I was struck with a powerful need to continue trudging until I find the light, the life I have been wanting to live. Reverie, is something I have learned out from curiosity that there is something better in this world. That somewhere in this life, I can find my reason, my purpose of living. I certainly do not understand a thing here. And I am aware that I still need to learn. There are lessons in life that no matter how many times it has been taught, you would still not learn a single thing. Not even a hint.
I love to dream. My vision works very well when I think of something unfamiliar. Something I have not experienced yet. Something strange.Something new. I have wanted so many things in my life but never had a chance of getting them. I always wanted something new in my life. But adverse as it is, I am afraid of change. So I am good at dreaming, about change.
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YOU ARE A GIFT-"HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETDIANNE"
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Posted:Feb 6, 2009 9:29 pm
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2009 3:04 am 4100 Views
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I am speechless, I don't know what to say. I feel so blessed today for so many reasons. At some point , life hadn't treated me well, but life is fair. I may not have all the material things, but I am blessed with the most wonderful people in this world. I am so thankful and grateful for all the gifts I have received today, and that is the gift of friendship especially.
SWEETDIANNE,sweetdianne4u
Darling, you are beautiful, intelligent, inspiring, magical, lovable, irreplaceable, competent, and nothing short of amazing. Don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise, not even yourself. I love you so much and you are such a wonderful friend! Be strong, beautiful. Happy Birthday!!
Happy Birthday TERE  
Ms. Magical!
ILAN TAON ka NA? Mwah mwah!
I was suppose to write a poem for you, but for some reason the Shakespeare side of me has been turned off.
And so it my futile attempt to come up with a poem, I created this:
An Ode to a Friend
I'm able to face my daily storm with a brave heart
Because I know when I break down you are there
I can laugh at all my mistakes,
Because at some point you did them too
I don’t care if I eat a lot or I get fat,
Because I know that won’t change the way you see me
I don’t care whether my style is so 48 yrs ago
Because you’ll always there for me
It doesn’t matter if we don’t always get along
Because at the end of the day, we can set aside our differences
I don’t care if we don’t see each other in person
Or if we grow apart
Because we are friends, and I guess that’ll never change.
I love you SWEETDIANNE!
Thanks for everything!
For all the sacrifices and considerations,
you don’t know how much it meant to me
For being there sa mga important na stages sa life ko. Thank you!
You’ll always be one of the most treasured people in my life.
Happy Birthday SWEETDIANNE... I hope you know that I am wishin you have the best birthday ever... Stay safe and know that so many people care about you... take care and have such a blessed birthday....
THANK YOU!!!
Truly, in life you don't need money to feel complete but if there are people who truly care and love you, it is more than enough. I was crying the whole night because I had no money. There was not enough money in my wallet to help you go for your chemotheraphy,you know how much I wanted to help you but im so sorry,my sweet friend. not even enough for a GIFT FOR YOU. No candles to wish for.
If you need me, call me
No matter where you are
No matter how far
Just call my name
I'll be there in a hurry
You don't have to worry
'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you
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"CHANGE"
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Posted:Feb 6, 2009 9:13 pm
Last Updated:May 26, 2009 6:18 pm 3789 Views
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Why am I always afraid of change? Always. They said change is inevitable. Whether we like it or not, it's always going to happen. But why do I always afraid to take chances. To choose something over something. I have been wondering, how did I learn to live my life with what ifs? And it's hard when you're too affrighted to know what's going to happen the next day when you decide to do something different. Sometimes, it hurts to take part of this thing called change but no matter how we want to stay the same, everything in life is ought to change. But there is this one thing I've learned from Philosophy, "the tree might grow taller, the branches might sprout longer, but the trunk stays the same." This clearly elucidates that, the things that matters most to us, will remain.
So why fear our tomorrow? Sometimes in life, we should stop thinking about what's going to happen tomorrow, these changes actually just want to remind us where we are right now.
Change.
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REMEMBER THE DAY I MET YOU!
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Posted:Feb 6, 2009 9:06 pm
Last Updated:Feb 26, 2009 4:19 pm 3846 Views
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You might not be reading this anymore but I want you to know that you are such an amazing, loving, sweet person I have ever met in this world. You have touched my life in a way I have started to realize that there is beauty underneath every scar. And you shall soon discover it yourself. Your words, just like you said to me, speak of love. Love that only yourself can understand. And I thank God even more, that you have been a part of my life, because I have learned every piece of sufferings, sorrows, frustrations, disappointments. And I have learned to battle them. I have learned to express myself. I have learned to give what is just enough of my capabilities. And most of all I have learned to be myself. And it's all because of you. I don't intend to overemphasize things, I don't mean to exaggerate it. But those are the things you have done to me. You are worth any exaggeration and hyberbole can do. You are such a great person.
Happy Anniversary.... 
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Alone
I hear the ticking of the clock
I’m lying here the room’s pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won’t end though
Alone
Refrain:
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
You don’t know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight,oh
You don’t know how long I have waited
And I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone
Refrain:
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
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"FEELING LULL-ISH"
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Posted:Jan 28, 2009 5:41 pm
Last Updated:Sep 27, 2009 1:28 am 4060 Views
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Like the way, as , we saw the world as our playground. but somewhere down the road, everyone forgets.
instanet
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