I am enthralled with so much beauty depicted in this picture.
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Posted:May 1, 2009 2:51 am
Last Updated:Jun 26, 2010 7:31 pm 4253 Views
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All things bright and beautiful. The Lord God made them all. I can still fairly recall this line from my gradeschool lesson. Who doesn't?Just like this person I met today she is really full of beauty.She came over and visit me in my house.I've been sick for a week now because of this illness i have,but despite of the distance she managed to come and see me.Isn't that she's sweet?
She is Sweetdianne a picture of beauty.I am so lucky that i met her and i am glad she is getting better too.
Thank you Sis for coming over for a visit,I am glad we've finally met.I love you sissy!
I am glad I find that enthusiasm to express and to speak for my soul today.Life has been less exciting for me lately.Been resting and sleeping lots lately and thinking about tomorrow if i can work again. And also I stopped blogging for a while,Is there something wrong with me? I eat,I drink,I sleep,I work,and I go out with friends,and then the next day,things has changed.I am hoping i can still get back to my normal life,walk,live and be positive.Can I still see all the things that are bright and beautiful after i get well??
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the way the ball bounces ............................. the way the ball bounces
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Posted:Apr 20, 2009 8:16 am
Last Updated:Jun 26, 2010 7:16 pm 4083 Views
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Well- I guess in storms- the tide -the wind - the whole world can change in a moment. I wrote a poem once about a moment. hmmm. Anyway- I 've been known to jump to conclusions. Sometimes I'm right -sometimes I'm wrong. Either way; I'd prefer to do the right thing. But learning that is usually done thru the trials & error of time. Wow- what we learn from time. Anyway - I thought I'd be in a better mood to write here, but seemingly I'm not in the best of moods. So- instead of conclusively saying something-lol- I guess I'll just air myself out & take a walk or something. Oh -where is the sea? a walk on a beach would be perfect. Even feeding seagulls, while ducking them would be enjoyable. Where do u go when your heart is troubled & in trouble? I'm looking for that place.
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Because Life is Beautiful
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Posted:Apr 6, 2009 7:17 pm
Last Updated:Jan 2, 2010 8:20 am 4281 Views
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You will never get to experience life unless you go out and see what is happening outside. The world outside is like a big hole with no ladder. You always need to find your way up or else you will rot. If luck finds you, you can go up with the help of others. But that is a rare scenario.
We know for a fact that life is difficult. But if you keep on sticking to that painful truth, you will die without even understanding what life should mean. There are a whole lot of things to cherish. The air that we breathe, the water we drink each day, the beautiful sunshine. God, These things are so amazing. Yes, I love family and God knew how much I wanted to be with them.Spend my time with them. God knew how much I wanted to take care of my even when i am sick.God knew how much I wanted to cook breakfast for my mother when i'm up at 3am and go to work,but she all do it for me instead.I wished for more time to be awake in the night. These are my predicaments. But do I have to grieve life because of that? My life does not end there.
Our world has so much to offer. And we should also ought to know that.
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Your song
It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
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Sometimes, I need to hear myself out...
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Posted:Apr 6, 2009 6:03 pm
Last Updated:Aug 22, 2010 1:39 am 4523 Views
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it's times like this that i miss the days i used to give myself very sound advise. and take note, advise that's usually backed up by my much veneered principles i so highly regard of. but now that i've tainted even my own sense of self-trust, i can't really make much decisions that aren't either plagued by doubt or couldn't be made at all.
okay. i just prolly lost half of the people reading this. prolly half of myself too. what i just wanted to say is that i'm getting myself all hyped up again. a half of me wants to believe this is what i've been waiting for. the other half, the half that's still sane enough to think (period. just think), is saying be on high alert.
what am i trying to say here? honestly, i sort of forgot it somewhere along the string of words above. hahaha. you know, the feelings that get you all elated and floating. and just when you least expect it, it'll leave you hanging up there. like someone used to say, the higher you get, the harder you fall. and right now, now that i'm starting my way up the steep hill again, i'm terrified of the fall. the fall that i have yet to see. but it's out there alright. i know it's out there. the hard thing is that i have to balance myself between two things. i have to know how to be in the moment and try to enjoy things as they happen but at the same time be level enough with myself to realize that i have to keep myself planted well in the ground. to not get myself too high. too drowned with my own delusions. try to keep things simple and let it roll itself out. not to get ahead of myself and expect too much out of it. cos after all, it'll happen if it'll happen. else, it was not meant to be.
what i'm afraid of right now is the drop. or more specifically, what happens after the drop. the drop is inevitable. once you get on the track, you're on your way up and you have to take the fall one way or another. what happens after the fall is crucial. either you leave your brains up there and take the whole thing one inch at a time and realize nothing real's waiting for you down there and that the whole thing has just been a ride. just another turn on the wheel. either that or you take the fall and realize you get off it a better person in a better place. okay. ugly metaphor.
right now, it just feels like i'm worried. i'm feeling my way through the walls and so far so good. i'm really just terrified of what lies ahead. i guess one might say i shouldn't have gotten myself entangled in the whole thing to begin with. yeah yeah i know. forgive me for wanting to make something exciting out of my life. forgive me for trying to get what i've always wanted. the cave was just too inviting. tantalizing. almost luring. and yeah, i want to try it out. and now here i am,i do hear faint sounds of hope somewhere out there. and the breeze of the air in the dark seems to say i'm on the right track. but it's too early to say. frankly, right now, i'm half-way in. or still half-way out, depending on how you look at it.this means i can still start working my way back and out. which i technically can. but i won't....ohh..i won't. i shouldn't. shouldn't i? i dunno. i'm confused.
the risk-taker in me is raring to see how this whole thing will end. like what i was telling my friend, if you invest, you ready yourself to not get your capital back. consider it sunk cost. unless of course you called the right deal then you're in for the money. but until you see your investments through, you're completely clueless on how you'll crash and burn. okay. i'm prolly being a little too pessimistic here. i'm just trying to keep myself ready for the worst-case-scenario.
don't get me wrong. i'm happy. which is scaring me ...
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Goodbye Yellow Brick Road
When are you gonna come down
When are you going to land
I should have stayed on the farm
I should have listened to my old man
You know you can't hold me forever
I didn't sign up with you
I'm not a present for your friends to open
This boy's too young to be singing the blues
So goodbye yellow brick road
Where the dogs of society howl
You can't plant me in your penthouse
I'm going back to my plough
Back to the howling old owl in the woods
Hunting the horny back toad
Oh I've finally decided my future lies
Beyond the yellow brick road
What do you think you'll do then
I bet that'll shoot down your plane
It'll take you a couple of vodka and tonics
To set you on your feet again
Maybe you'll get a replacement
There's plenty like me to be found
Mongrels who ain't got a penny
Sniffing for tidbits like you on the ground
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Let's Gooooooooooo ... adventure-ing!
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Posted:Mar 23, 2009 6:20 am
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2009 7:49 am 4134 Views
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when "old" people feel intoxicated with work, they go insane on the impulsive and spontaneous road trips!!!. HAHAHAHAHA..
the other night, Sheryl and i were talking about how work was starting to take its toll on me.. well im still adjusting tho, cos i've only worked for a month and a half.. but i can only imagine how intoxicated I am working on sunday... she's been not working for almost 3 months now .. sheeesh.. anyway.. one time she asked me if i wanted to go on an impulsive trip to somewhere up south.. and take note..it's not even my rest day !. i told her we'll just I might not be free by then.. and besides, it ruins the whole impulsive feel of the trip.. so we left it at that..
One morning, i totally had no plans.. and completely forgot our conversation a few nights ago.. i've been pushing myself at work kasi eh.. which is why i've totally spaced out on the deal.. then Sheryl texted me that morning and asked if i was still up for it.. being the impulsive bitch that i am, i agreed to it!. but i am at work that time, i literally I am working that day anyway.. and it's the friggin weekend!!. time to unwind.. hahahaha.. I love working and playing at all.. yaaayy.. i enjoy what i am doing... so around 8 am , i got a message from skype from James(my boss) to get ready for he's going to pick me up at work.. and we were off to the south!
...forward, we go...
it was soooo funny.. cos we got lost somewhere on our way to pick up Sheryl (GF) !!. I even forget the right direction.. hahahaha.. so anyway, when we finally got to SM Molino, it was smooth sailing all the way.. oh wait!. not quite.. cos as we were entering the wrong way, i started to think where are we going?.. as in we had to make a U turn coz i am not good in directions going to her house... .. we had to enter small street and couldn't find Sheryl's place.. as in we got disheartened completely.. cos it was really out of directions.. i mean were LOST!. we even started thinking of alternative places to go.. we eventually arrived with Molino road.. like try discovering new places there or something.. yeah.. it was a pathetic plan A.. but it was definitely better than just surrendering and going home.. so we entered streets and finally found her place and the sun started shining!!. i mean seriously.. summer heat. so we were like, "ano, Taal na??" so Taal it was!. hahahaha.. we were sooooo happy we made the right decision!. behind us was lost directions, and in front of us was a perfectly clear sky!!!.
grabe!!. we love the South!!!!. James totally loved driving along SLEX!!.. the road was wide.. and everyone was going past 100!. hahahahaha.. nakakaaliw!. and then we pulled over at the third gas station we saw.. we just wanted to stop by somewhere.. just for the sake of saying we did.. hahahaha.. oh and we had to ask which exit to take to get to Batangas.. and load up on goodies too!. tapos it was soooo funny.. when we were paying, we started to make gago the cashier..
*in front of the cashier while paying*
Sheryl: ano Nadine, bili tayo ng condom? just in case?
Nadine: onga eh.. just in case gabihin tayo..
cashier: *looked scandalized*
of course James didn't understand Tagalog.Glad he can't ..
hahahahahaha.. shiiiiit.. i like it.. hahahaha.. anyway.. half an hour later, we took the Talisay exit na.. tapos we drove around and looked for this place sheryl's friend recommended.. she said it was a must-try in Batangas.. so we did..
sheeeeeeeeett.. we had sooooooo much, it wasn't funny anymore.. while we were ordering, we asked the the lady person what their specialties were.. and she pointed out a dish . it looked questionable.. so i asked her what it was made of.. she was like, "uhm. crickets po" CRICKETS !!. James,Sheryl and i both were like, "err. i dont think we'll be having that!" hahahaha.. so instead, we ordered pancit canton and bihon,tofu,and fresh lumpia fried chicken, and soup,spring chicken and bread for James!!. OMG!!!. we we're all hungry.. .. but i was feeling all adventurous today.. so we went ahead and ordered a lot of food.. take note.. we ordered another cup of rice and halfed it!. yes!!. it was a cup and a half of rice for me today!! whoaaaaa!!!.. hahahahaha.. as in after the meal, we both just wanted to die.. hahahaha.. and the meal wasn't that cheap either!. it was pretty expensive actually.. but oh well..
it was already half past three in the afternoon when we finished lunch.. we thought we still had time.. and since we were really feeling spontaneous and since we were already around the place, we thought, why not just go to Lemery Batangas na rin??.We were on the road asking directions how to get to the beach.It's almost half four and still we couldn't find the beach.We need to see the Fucking water...hehe where is the beach?We were in a hurry and we reached this Heaven Resort and we expected like it's Heaven but the hell..it's not!At the end we just took some picture of the Fucking water,and James was dissapointed because he really wanted to swim and play on the sand.But atlas we reached there 2 minutes before the sunset.
ports spewing stuff into the sea just up ahead!. why take a swim?? ugh.. stupid.. anyway.. we just camwhored the hour away.. then we called it a day.. haha..
so we started our three-hour drive home.. which turned to four.. pfft!.
everything was really smooth sailing since we left Batangas.. up until slex.. as in all the cars literally were at no halt..no total stop!. no traffic it's sunday!. it was fun anyway.. we had more time to talk about more stuff.. and laugh about more things!. hahahaha..
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A daily Dose of Love Won't Kill You
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Posted:Mar 20, 2009 8:05 am
Last Updated:Mar 17, 2010 6:48 pm 5153 Views
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In this day and age, when everyone seems to be living in the fast lane, seeking for instant gratification, will we ever find true love?
“I love you.” A lot of people say these magical words, but don’t necessarily mean them. Love is never instantaneous… it grows over time. Love at first sight? Is there really such a thing? There can be physical attraction at first, but love goes much deeper than that.
Somebody I know well, said those meaningful words. He meant every word and vowed for a lifetime commitment.
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Thank You Mom Nadine-thank you for making my dream come true
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Posted:Mar 20, 2009 5:51 am
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2009 10:45 pm 4104 Views
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Its beautiful here today,the sun is bright not a cloud,the air is warmer...Today is a special day for me.It's my graduation day.Someone gets congratulations on job well done today?Thank you very much Mom.You made my dream come true,you will always be my angel,thank you for guiding me all thru the years,to my sisters who made me smile each time i need help...my special thanks to you. May God always bless you,I will do my best to make Mom Nadine smile.I love you Mama-I know i am handsome and smart too.
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Thank you for a life so beautiful,
for the love of a lifetime,
for the joy i found in my daughters and .
Thank you for the countless blessings,
for the wonderful family,
for precious friends i’d forever cherish.
Thank you too for life’s lessons,
they surely made me stronger,
because of them i am wiser.
I will forever be thankful for everything….No matter what happens, i know i will be love by You. In you alone dear God do i find peace and sheer bliss!
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Life always begins with a simple story.
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Posted:Mar 18, 2009 6:06 pm
Last Updated:Jun 1, 2009 4:26 pm 4008 Views
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Long time ago, the bird could not fly because they did not have wings.One day,God called all animals together and asked them to dress their wings. However, all of them did not like except the bird, because they are afraid that it could cause some inconvenience for their movement. As a result, the bird could immediately fly in the wild sky. Looking at the bird flying freely in the sky, the other animals regret that they made wrong decision; they envied the bird a lot.
It is a simple story. However, it costs me a lot of time to understand the meaning of this story implies: You can not fly further unless you have the courage to dress your wings.
The bird never ever hesitated: can I afford the heavy wings? What I should be looked upon in case I failed in flying? But the bird strive to fly and succeeded to fly in the sky eventually. Meanwhile, the other animals tried everything possible to relax themselves. They feared the trouble and evaded the heavy workload. Finally, what they could do is only to raise their head and look up the wide sky, complaining for themselves.
Do we have the ability to fly in the sky?
Yes, we can do it. As long as we want to fly!
We can do it, if we are brave enough to face violent storm, thunder and lightning, if we are brave enough to suffer from severe winter and intensive heat of summer, if we are brave enough to stand up from hundreds of failures.
We can do it if only we can adjust ourselves, namely, adjust our wings to suit ourselves, so that we can control our wings better.
We can fly if we do have the courage to spread our wings and fly
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WHAT AM I THINKING TODAY?
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Posted:Mar 14, 2009 11:04 pm
Last Updated:Mar 20, 2009 5:59 pm 4167 Views
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I was looking at my blog and realized to write something new.I like the quiet mood in the office and i started thinking something to write in the middle of the day, i thought of something really unforgettable,I have all the vigor in me to write stuff.. is it because some people are reading and i read nice comments from them...
Right now,I find myself wide awake after 4 hours of sleep last night,I am staring at the ceiling, reading and deeply thinking. I feel so lucky if I get to sleep soundly through the night more than 6 hours.I envy my Mom and the because, “it’s like they have a magic switch, that when pushed, they automatically sleep.” But today, while i am at work i am falling asleep so i find outlet for my sleeplessness...
Here I am, very much awake this time I was supposed to be doing my article on WoW,but i choose to write my blog here.It's Sunday and all the WoW players are on their deep sleep. I can see the weather is cool today, it rained this morning,I have some hidden positive energies in my body that i can used right now.It seems that there are things left in my sub-conscious that keep the circuits of my brain running. For the past several weeks, I haven’t got any invitation from my friends for a walk at the mall coz I've been working already,so I sleep on my off and spent time with the .When I am free I jog and walk for 30 minutes to maintain my physical balance. I have watched the television. I finished reading a book. I have surfed the Internet. I prayed and thanked my creator for another wonderful day. Oh yes, another meaningful day indeed, but in times like this, I definitely don’t know what to think and absolutely am not sure what to feel because all I know is my eyes are wide open!
what am i thinking today? well for one, everything reminded me during my college days,I remember this formula( Y=sinX )it is a mathematical equation representing a sinusoidal wave. From the electrical point of view, it is a continuous alternating current. But I have derived a more personal meaning for this equation: it’s the ups and downs of life or life’s constant change. Since I am a music lover, I know a lot of songs written about it. And I remember one song in the mid 80’s that says “..these are all the many changes in my life..” I was born in the late 70’s, when the law of the land (in the Philippines) is being corrupted by a powerful and very ambitious man, who, up to the present time put the nation into crisis and debts in trillion pesos.
I have given-up my stable career last year working in the Law Office for an odd reason,pointless reason.I am lucky to have small hard-earned house and two adorable girls and a ,and my Mom who has been a big help taking care of them when i am working.I am glad that I have “welcomed” myself into the world of games called WoW.
It’s been seven years since i am single/separated. But it seems that like a tree, my roots have not yet established its foundation on the ground. I have some uncertainties in my mind. Will I ever find the perfect job for me here? Maybe never. Perhaps it’s just a matter of accepting and embracing the truth that after practicing my profession for years, I am no longer part of the Law Office . But, I still can go back anytime if I want to. In fact, I have received employment offers a few months ago, which I turned down in the last minute. However, I am not regretful, because it would only mean one thing: to be away from my family. I have been on the same track so many times before and I got sick. I became so anxious that I have come to a point in my life when I fearfully experienced the feeling of nostalgia .
This is all that matters to me now. I’m so grateful to have a fruitful life, enjoying the company of my beloved with whom I became a mother to a smart and beautiful daughters.I wish to have my Man someday,I know he's just out there keeping an eye like a coldwind... now I am just waiting for him. At 32, just like any other normal human being, I have passed through the stages of becoming a real adult. I have learned that the dream of achieving something is like an act of making love. You do the foreplays, enjoy the process and would eventually reach the climax. There are no written rules on how you perform it. But you must have a sense of responsibility to know the right reason for doing it. I was once a just like my now. I was also energetic, always ready to play all day long, and have explored all the possible things that surround me. So whenever something happens, I am reminded by my own past, and I would normally tell my the story behind it. I couldn’t help myself but to compare my childhood with my . I tell them that before, we make our own toys, and we create our own games. But now, it’s seems that every toy on a ’s hand is fresh from the factory, powered by electronically-controlled programs. I cannot really say if my good old days were any better than them. But every time they listens to my stories of “how we do things then,” I am most certain that with the twinkle in their eyes, they also longs to have lived in my time. I am blessed with very supportive and understanding mom. Although life then did not provide us with its abundant resources, with the guidance of the one up above, they have successfully raised me, and my three siblings, in order to live life to the fullest. In return, we have studied, finished our own degrees and eventually joined the professionals. I wish my would step on the same ladder too, but of course they are still the captain of thier own ship, they will draw their own future.
Changes happen in my world as well as in yours. It’s inevitable. Thus, we must learn how to swim with the tide. And in the process, we live, learn and love. And most importantly, be the person you want to be!
Let me share to you this brilliant lyrics of the song. .Would you like to sing this for me?
When I'm 64 Lyrics 
When I get older, losing my hair,
Many years from now,
Will you still be sending me a Valentine
Birthday greetings, bottle of wine?
If I'd been out till quarter to three
Would you lock the door?
Will you still need me, will you still feed me,
When I'm sixty-four?
oo oo oo oo oo oo oo oooo
You'll be older too, (ah ah ah ah ah)
And if you say the word,
I could stay with you.
I could be handy, mending a fuse
When your lights have gone
You can knit a sweater by the fireside
Sunday mornings, go for a ride.
Doing the garden, digging the weeds,
Who could ask for more?
Will you still need me, will you still feed me,
When I'm sixty-four?
Every summer we can rent a cottage
In the Isle of Wight, if it's not too dear
We shall scrimp and save
Grandchildren on your knee:
Vera, Chuck, and Dave
Send me a postcard, drop me a line,
Stating point of view
Indicate precisely what you mean to say
Yours sincerely, Wasting Away.
Give me your answer, fill in a form
Mine for evermore
Will you still need me, will you still feed me,
When I'm sixty-four?
Whoo!
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