Blog : How Shallow You Are

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8/6/2008 7:53 pm

How Shallow You Are

Sometimes I feel…
like you’re not attracted to me
or maybe you are and
you’re just afraid
of getting too close
maybe the way you don’t respond
is God’s way of making it easier
to let you go
when the time comes
Sometimes I feel ashamed
because I think I push at things
and dwell upon pleasures you are not obligated to give me
and you act so cool and calm
and you shake your head like
"How shallow you are"

Sometimes I feel like:

I can’t control myself
you make my skin crawl
without even touching me

I feel lost in your storm
and sometimes I feel disappointed
when you don’t even pretend
to want to save me
And sometimes I feel like
you don’t even think of me
as anything else but a good friend
and while I want to be your friend
I want to be the one you crave
when you’re alone
but I guess
that’s just not the case
And if you do ever entertain thoughts of me
my Dear, you hide it well.
Sometimes I feel so pathetic
because I try so hard to elicit a response from you
and yet you just look at me
and smirk
like you’re thinking:
"Poor "

why must you torture me?
But most of the time
I just flat out feel ashamed
because I harbour so much desire for you
and I can’t keep it a secret
like you can.
Sometimes I feel like
I want to make you wonder
if I want you at all
just because I want to see you squirm
and become insecure
like you make me
And so, I’ve decided
to never mention again
how my mouth waters
and my body hungers for you
because this shame (How shallow you are)
and this insecurity (Poor )
are eating me alive
and I’d rather save
what’s left of me
because you’ve made it quite clear,
My Dear
that you don’t want to
And suddenly I hate what I see in the mirror.