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dont put colors into something black and white Yesterday noon time, my friends and I decided to do a random call to any guy we had talked to or met before. Mechanics on how to do the random call is just to plainly closed our eyes and just scroll down with our phone book and hit on call as soon as you decided to stop scrolling. I aint gonna be talking about my friends call. I, will be talking about mine.  Having said that, the two people i gave a rang was Jerry and Zachary. First, lets talked about Jerry.. Jerry is a guy who worked for NAIA and we never really got the chance to personally meet but we already have talked not a lot but a times. He seems to be a very decent and intelligent guy because of the manner he answer things and explain matters into the open. He was actually in the middle of something (his at work) so we did not really prolong our conversation. The last but not the least was Zachary, here is the buzz by the way - Zachary has a brother who lived in London and his brother's name is Jerry. (Ring a bell?!) yes, what a coincidence.. however the Jerry I spoke to earlier was not the brother of Zach since we really never got the chanced to meet him. Anyhow, going back to Zach's call- when he picked up the ring, he sounded superbly happy and was really really happy. That was actually the first time after we parted ways to each other (parted ways? -yes! he used to be my ex-boyfriend) back to the call -We both greeted each other happy new year and asked him about his status (health, work.. etc) and he said he was fine. I also mentioned and lied to him that I just bought a Naruto DVD when he asked me, what am I up to lately. You see, he is really into Naruto, for pit sake i dont know why. So when he learned that I bought a Naruto DVD he was kinda thrilled and shocked that I did grab one. Moving on.. I could not help but to asked him why he sounded so happy before I end the call - he told me, "For a very simple reason, you gave me a call" yeah right! Do you think I was surprised? of course not, I was startled instead, crazy huh.. then I was ravishing, I felt my heart beats too fast and hot flashes rushes to my face! shocks! Then, he followed it with, "I'll buy a new sim so I can give you a call" like what's that supposed to mean? huh? All that came into my head that time since I my rationals are clouded by my emotion, I told him, "that is great, just give me a call as soon as you switch.. you take care!" -I could not think I told him to give me a call.. He was the guy that I have been trying to forget and moved on with but why am I such teased by fate, or it is only I who is teasing myself and holding on? sigh! what kind of predicament is this! What thing I learned is to never ever put any color into something black and white, however can you blame me? I mean, I could not eradicate such thought. Sigh! I kept reminding myself, SKY - he sent you an SMS message, letting you know that he is thankful to have you as a friend. So I should stay as that! Well, you see.. the complete message was, "Sky, I am thankful to have you as a friend and you are one of those people i dont want to lose". So then again, I should not put any colors into something black and white and I should not follow what my instincts are telling me because since I followed this instinct, it is just making things complicated... I keep wondering if I am listening to the same old instinct that I used to listen before... I might have listened to the wrong one. Anyhow, if someone out there who is an expert to this kind of love scenario, will or rather, would you please enlighten this absurd and bizarre emotions of mine... I thank you in advance. Cheers! |
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1/3/2008 2:43 pm |
thanks odette317, ill ponder on it =)
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Just follow your heart dear...good luck. Follow your dreams... and hit the mark.   
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