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You may think I was something to catch I’m going to break away from these chains that bind me. Finally now, I will be able to say I’m free. I’m not going to be tied down by “What ifs” of tomorrow And hoping for things I know will never be. I’m not going to look back when I leave you There will be no sideways glance behind. I’m going to hit the trails of freedom Before my words finally sink into your mind. You might reach out a hand to grasp me But all you’ll catch is the dusty air. You might scream out my name in hope But it’s no use when I’m no longer there. The birds will serenade me with their songs And perhaps they may turn to your side. They might try to persuade me to turn around But I no longer have anything else to hide. I was never meant to be tamed In the wild I was meant to live and fight My heart is a racing mustang across the prairie There is no stopping me tonight. You may think I was something to catch But in fact, I was just someone to love. You may try and pull me in close to your side But I’m nothing you have ever dreamed of. I’m not one to be chained down by promises At least not anymore it seems. I’m running on a different path now And I’ll keep running until I’m low on steam. The world may throw obstacles at me They might try to tell me to go back. But I’m living life on my terms now And there’s no way I’m falling off track. In this life you don’t know what you have Until it’s slipped between your fingers and gone Guess you should have thought of that earlier You never know–I could have been the one. I’m not sticking around in hopes that A miracle might somehow come to me. Tonight I’m finally breaking off these chains on my heart From now until the end–I was meant to be free.  ~ Jolielaide  |
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if you only know Princess  ~ Jolielaide
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last night i was hysterical i hate myself for being so affected i was mad because i didn't sacrifice the most important in my life just for this this is not what i bargained for and i want out ~ Jolielaide
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 ~ Jolielaide
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maybe Princess just let me gather some courage you know me it's hard for me to reach out ~ Jolielaide
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these past few days i was really contemplating to take the money and run while i still can other part is weary starting over again ~ Jolielaide
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gosh, i missed talking with you guys ~ Jolielaide
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i can hear the song of freddy mercury in my head and randy crawford ~ Jolielaide
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yeah but i have to take care of few things first one thing about being hitched is if there are rights attach to it there are also duties ~ Jolielaide
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1/21/2009 3:16 am |
u can do it bebs make it slowly...but surely  goodluck!   
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u can do it bebs make it slowly...but surely goodluck! the ___ woman changed the subject she told me about her highschool escapades instead  ~ Jolielaide
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if one have no other option... ~ Jolielaide
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in this case i think asperger's syndrome is just an excuse to be a jrk ~ Jolielaide
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1/21/2009 8:45 am |
i asked my mother today what is best to do the ___ woman changed the subject she told me about her highschool escapades instead  maybe...she wanna go home!!!  
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oh well! maybe...she wanna go home!!! she loves the new house she said the living room is bigger than the ballroom of Guinayangan academy (her former school) she keeps telling me i'm rich i 'm suppressing the urge to hold and shake her till her teeth rattles ~ Jolielaide
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hope to move there by the ned of feb ~ Jolielaide
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not feeling well today my asthma attack becomes a full blown flu ~ Jolielaide
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i know appreciate it more than you could think of ~ Jolielaide
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i rather be in my other place i hate it when things that have to be done left unfinished i don't want to do the same thing twice ~ Jolielaide
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there was a time when i was younger that i was pretty sure of myself. the more i get older, the less i become certain little mundane things make me doubt insecurities slowly settling in ~ Jolielaide
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thanks Princess  now i really have to get to a doctor runny nose and my sinusitis is killing me ~ Jolielaide
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some comments show up late good that i have a habit of scrolling through the pages ~ Jolielaide
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exactly. i stayed 20 years in a marriage that doesn't work. i would like to tell myself i tolerated the realtionship that long because of the kids. at the end of the day, it's just another excuse. because when you put your heart and soul in a partnership with an eye for a lifetime, you will find yourself making excuses just to stay. it's very difficult to leave especially when things are not really all and all that bad ~ Jolielaide
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and what you said about being passively waiting is oh so true. hope that this time i will find the courage soon to start all over again when things are not really worth saving anymore ~ Jolielaide
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oh i feel so helpless while i'm laying here being sick, there is a lot of work to be done nothing happened when i am not around the boy needs not only a manual but point by point audio guidance get out of bed, put your feet on the floor, it's ok, c'mon you can do it, good... now, walk to the door, don't just stand there... go reach for the door knob, yes with your hand and turn it. now you see? it's open, well done... he drives me nuts! ~ Jolielaide
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