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4/5/2009 2:28 pm

I had a call from my today. It’s about a sofa-bed (in fact two sofa-beds. One round, one love seat) that she wanted to have. The thing(s) is humongous it cannot fit into an ordinary big car. In fact, I hired a moving van to bring them to its present location. So, I said: “why don’t your papa come and get it?”

Long silence at the other end of the phone, followed by series of nervous coughs, then she said in her duh voice: “You know he would never do it.”

Normally, this is the moment when I shut up and try to stir the conversation into more neutral ground like I always did in the past; but not this time. It’s been almost 6 years, the game have to be over by now. The guy didn’t even give back one single personal things of mine, not even a picture for fcking sakes!

Not that I didn’t ask for them. “It’s laying/hanging well here C. why should you want to disturb them?”

What sort of an answer is that? Because of him I missed birthdays, graduations, and important special events of my simply because he made them choose! What a very infantile thing to do! I always back out in the past for the sake of my ; I don’t want them to pick sides. I learned that if they prefer mine it always ended up in catastrophe. So I gave in and gave in and gave in. it’s like being married with him all over again.

I can’t understand why he’s mad at me? It supposed to be the other way around. He’s angry because I got away? Because he thought I would not do it? Or it is because I left him instead of he left me? Could be also that I went to somebody so young the guy could be his ? And I didn’t end up in the street like he wanted me to? I don’t know. All I want is for the emotional blackmails to be over.

So, I called his mother to ask why her is acting so idiotically all these years. And guess what the woman said to me…
She said because his precious only boy isn’t over me yet. (as if it explains everything) and if I were her (or vice versa) I will not hold my breath waiting for the wind to change because the middle age childish ’s of her will never get over me. I almost got a hearth attack! He has a GF now, they’re doing okay I heard. But she’s only the second choice my ex-mother-in-law said. And if one can’t have what one truly wants, they forced to settle for the next best thing.

I put down the phone thinking, how long I have to tolerate his shtty behaviour for the sake of my ?