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SILENCE AND "MALDITA" Seems that I have not bounced back from various set backs I got since last week. The mess I had with dad left me broke after paying the services needed..( at least I took responsibility for it).. I was also forced to file legal complain concerning some errors that appeared in my academic records which was not given much attention by the academic council despite of my diplomatic appeal. I discovered that legal issues wasn't really easy.(Whew!!!) I was so busy that 24 hours proved to be very insufficient in order for me to cope with so many things around. In my frustration, I even regretted why I learned to know the nature of the very promising exercise called "sleep".  In my daily flights, I remained silent most of the time. Talking made me more exhausted. My staff and bestfriend respected my unusual silence by nodding their heads and giving me their reserved smiles whenever we crossed our ways. I left written instructions on my table for my friend to carry on the other affairs of the day.Keeping silent is my way of making my mind focused to the things that I have to do when times got rough and harsh. For some who do not knew me well, they often end up calling me "maldita". Even the fitness instructor in the gym would often label me with the same word. It seems that making me obey her wants serves as her ultimate goal whenever I join her sessions.She would kept barking me with her instructions on how to perform some movements which I have been doing for so many years already. With this, I changed my gym schedule coz I do not like her anymore. This afternoon, I was again settling on the one corner of the bench while waiting for my friend to finish her belly dancing ( I don't like belly dancing much I go for funk and hip hop dancing). As I looked at them wiggling their hips I was thinking how graceful and feminine their movements were.I was not aware how serious my facial expression was when suddenly, my former student tapped and told me that I looked very "maldita" in my serious expression. She coaxed me to utter a single word for her to hear my voice once again.I smiled. After she left, I started to ponder why keeping silent sometimes seems to be very unusual to some people. Why silence seems to be a very dangerous mystery for some? isn't it that in the moments of silence you will clearly hear the language of your heart? isn't it that silence is the most powerful prayer that will help in hearing God's response? In times of confusions, difficulties and losses, I prefer to be silent because in doing so I get reunited with my own self.Myself which is my oasis and my source of strength. I am not "maldita", I am just trying to commune with myself in the silence of my heart. I still keep my silence until now but I am sure I am on way to bounce back from too many messes I had been through lately. I might not be talking much but I still manage to smile whenever I remember it.  
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Silence is the language that I speak quite often, `tis why, I'd rather write because my fingers and the keyboard will do all the work, while I REMAIN SILENT... 
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I AM PICKY WITH BUDDIES AND FRIENDS..how much more BOYFRIEND? better to be alone than to be with somebody who is stupid...heheheheehe
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Sometimes, when a person is not in the mood, just being silent will make him/her feel better...You just need to give him/her a pat on the shoulders and a good company...everything will be fine...just fine...
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I always say: SOMETIMES, SILENCE IS THE BEST CONVERSATION I CAN EVER HAVE WITH AN INTELLIGENT FRIEND... glad we are both intelligent...hehehehe
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When my spirit goes weary about the struggles and chaos of everyday life, I seek SILENCE, that's where I gain back my peace and courage again. 
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i sometimes need a time-out..time to be alone, in my own silence, away from it all, and its then i can fathom why everything is..
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I'm with your on that one sis!  
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The sound of silence is a golden sound, I often say; but that's because it's my normal way of life. When I was still living with the family, it was one of my mysterious ways that they learned to accept and yet until present, have not understood. But when confronted with problems or with troubled mind, I don't dwell in silence. I throw myself wide open to my love ones and friends for assistance and comfort. At first, I was hesitant because I thought it was a sign of weakness, but as I gain more knowledge, I realized that it's only courage that I worried about. Aside from lighten my load; I also learned more about them on how they react on certain situation, hence could appropriately return the favor when the time comes. Taken by so & so as "Maldita"? Forget it, that's their problem; by love ones and friends, considered it as a sign of affection because they are looking at you as a child with all the rights and privileges of being a maldita. So light-up, go see dad, mom and lola and have a buko juice with them before that coconut tree RIP. grrrrrrrrr!!!!!! u really have the passion for that coco tree huh!!! It was already cut down...no more!!! the nature of my work requires me to talk all the time, thats why if i am out from my work i don't want to talk anymore...i don't also talk specially if i am mad...why? I am suffocated with my ow voice...opppssss bago ka hihirit...i always have my sweet and well modulated voice only talking is the act that i am already tired of...instead, i write whenever i feel bad to the person...
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5/13/2008 7:28 pm |
The sound of silence is a golden sound, I often say; but that's because it's my normal way of life. When I was still living with the family, it was one of my mysterious ways that they learned to accept and yet until present, have not understood. But when confronted with problems or with troubled mind, I don't dwell in silence. I throw myself wide open to my love ones and friends for assistance and comfort. At first, I was hesitant because I thought it was a sign of weakness, but as I gain more knowledge, I realized that it's only courage that I worried about. Aside from lighten my load; I also learned more about them on how they react on certain situation, hence could appropriately return the favor when the time comes. Taken by so & so as "Maldita"? Forget it, that's their problem; by love ones and friends, considered it as a sign of affection because they are looking at you as a child with all the rights and privileges of being a maldita. So light-up, go see dad, mom and lola and have a buko juice with them before that coconut tree RIP. "Back to Present and into MyWorld"
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5/13/2008 5:38 pm |
Silence is the language that I speak quite often, `tis why, I'd rather write because my fingers and the keyboard will do all the work, while I REMAIN SILENT... "Back to Present and into MyWorld"
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5/12/2008 10:29 pm |
i sometimes need a time-out..time to be alone, in my own silence, away from it all, and its then i can fathom why everything is..
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When my spirit goes weary about the struggles and chaos of everyday life, I seek SILENCE, that's where I gain back my peace and courage again. Follow your dreams... and hit the mark.   
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5/12/2008 12:56 pm |
I always say: SOMETIMES, SILENCE IS THE BEST CONVERSATION I CAN EVER HAVE WITH AN INTELLIGENT FRIEND... Just call me ELZ 
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5/12/2008 12:55 pm |
Sometimes, when a person is not in the mood, just being silent will make him/her feel better...You just need to give him/her a pat on the shoulders and a good company...everything will be fine...just fine... Just call me ELZ
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5/12/2008 12:54 pm |
....and yet, I GET MY MESSAGES ACROSS.. Just call me ELZ
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5/12/2008 12:53 pm |
Silence is the language that I speak quite often, `tis why, I'd rather write because my fingers and the keyboard will do all the work, while I REMAIN SILENT... Just call me ELZ
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5/12/2008 12:52 pm |
I AM PICKY WITH BUDDIES AND FRIENDS..how much more BOYFRIEND? Just call me ELZ
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5/12/2008 12:52 pm |
I love being "silent", myself, and yeah, people who don't know me label me as a SNOB...And I don't care! Just call me ELZ
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