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I Died My Hair Tonight Yeah, I know. It's supposed to be "dyed". I know myself as much as I know that when I change my hair color or have a drastic hair cut from extra long to 'bunot' (which was something I did in college), that something in me has either become totally right or wrong. I dyed my hair brutally mahogany tonight. It's the same time I feel like something in me has died, but has been reborn. Just like the phoenix, a symbol that has been associated with me. I needed this day off. For the first time, I called in not sick but exhausted. And the office just went "Sure. No problem. You need it." I feel a bit embarrassed about it, but I so desperately needed this day off, unless they wanted my resignation tomorrow. I would be unemployed if I was somewhere else. But I don't care right now. I told my mom, the reason I work is so I could live, not to die working. So anyway, I was talking to Doc about how big time he messed up this time. And I was glad that of all the friends he has, he had to call me. My daily tarot forecast told me to 'listen' which was what I did when I let him think aloud for 30 minutes or so. And Doc felt like I was his bestfriend in the world. What tarot reading can do! I think I'm gonna be addicted. My tarot reader is so accurate that it predicted on a particular day this month, someone who was romantically attached to me will come back in good light. Someone did. He confessed to have been following my blogs (not sure if he follows my fff blog though), and asked why I am angry? He wanted to know what happened to me? My answer is this. I am angry for trusting love and friendship I have invested on and didn't work. I am angry at people who took advantage of my vulnerability. Doc said, my fault, too, but that I should strive to be a better person in ALL aspects. That is easy, huh. I love him and he loves me. He's sooooo supportive. And then, who do I know is free on a Monday or Tuesday night? Ahh...my ever beloved bEe eFf. He gave another missed call just like last week and the week before that. Pakshet. But I know he misses me. Nyeta sya. Miss ko rin siya. Tana nya, sana magdesisyon na sya kasi kasi kasi...Siyet, andaming nakapila. My week is fully booked with coffee dates after work. And my weekend is reserved for personal 'unloading'. Out of the blue question. How can a super hunk, tall and athletic guy with a 2-3 inch instrument cope? And why, of all people, should he choose to talk about it with me? I don't know if I should take it against myself or if I should think about it as a compliment. I think I should be a s*x counselor or something. So anyways, I still don't want to go to work later in three hours. Pakshet uli. Ngarag na nman ang beauty ko mamaya. 
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I know. lol. I should change professions. Lolz. Ahhh...the ocean...my calming sanctuary. Have a good week yourself.
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9/26/2007 6:52 am |
Hi loved-up lady. I wonder how your haircut looks now. Anger...hmmm we deal with it in our own time. I've been advised which I thought was a new take on the situation, start with forgiving yourself. Those reasons you outlined are sufficient enough to leave anyone frustrated. It's not satisfying when you make all the effort and put so much input but the output is little or none in return.    within each one of us, and let it begin with me (and each one of us)..one breath at a time.
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9/26/2007 7:02 am |
the reason I work is so I could live, not to die working. We should all remember this. The guy that is interested obviously likes you. I actually think there are more guys interested. You don't need to question why. I'm sure you've likeable to loveable qualities inside and out. within each one of us, and let it begin with me (and each one of us)..one breath at a time.
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Hi loved-up lady. I wonder how your haircut looks now. Anger...hmmm we deal with it in our own time. I've been advised which I thought was a new take on the situation, start with forgiving yourself. Those reasons you outlined are sufficient enough to leave anyone frustrated. It's not satisfying when you make all the effort and put so much input but the output is little or none in return.
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the reason I work is so I could live, not to die working. We should all remember this. The guy that is interested obviously likes you. I actually think there are more guys interested. You don't need to question why. I'm sure you've likeable to loveable qualities inside and out. There are more guys interested. But those I'm interested in are not into me. Sad no?  Oh well.... hehe
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10/13/2007 3:39 am |
My hair is the same, only now it's of a lighter shade. Friends say the color suits me. I am taking things at my own pace. Thanks for your words of wisdom. within each one of us, and let it begin with me (and each one of us)..one breath at a time.
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10/13/2007 3:42 am |
hehe...this is why I would never get rich. On the otherhand..... There are more guys interested. But those I'm interested in are not into me. Sad no? Oh well.... heheThat's a shame those guys aren't interested. I can't figure out why not.  ...Perhaps intimidated because they think they don't deserve to have you...only guessing.within each one of us, and let it begin with me (and each one of us)..one breath at a time.
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I noticed after reading your blog the second time around that you didn't cut it. Misread it the first time. You still look the same to me pretty as ever, just with a different colour of hair.  I think my face softened a little with the new color. Hay, I remember in college I had strange her streaks and hair color. But nothing unique really. I missed dyeing my hair. I get tired of my hair, but don't want to cut it. You've always had long hair?
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10/22/2007 3:45 pm |
Thanks sis I think my face softened a little with the new color. Hay, I remember in college I had strange her streaks and hair color. But nothing unique really. I missed dyeing my hair. I get tired of my hair, but don't want to cut it. You've always had long hair?  I've had short curly hair for a brief time. I started growing my hair longer in mid High school, but it tends to stay mid length because I find my hair is too thick and makes me feel too warm and sweaty so it gets cut twice a year. I've had a bit of colour applied but never full colour because I don't like too much chemicals in my sensitive scalp.within each one of us, and let it begin with me (and each one of us)..one breath at a time.
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My mom used to cut it so my hair looked like it was traced around a 'lampaso'. I've had short curly hair for a brief time. I started growing my hair longer in mid High school, but it tends to stay mid length because I find my hair is too thick and makes me feel too warm and sweaty so it gets cut twice a year. I've had a bit of colour applied but never full colour because I don't like too much chemicals in my sensitive scalp.
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