Blog : Just Venting: "I cried a river.......And the world watched"

23211 posts
7/18/2007 7:12 pm

Just Venting: "I cried a river.......And the world watched"

It's exactly a week now since I've last spoken to my very special friend. And although each day/night, there was a message on my voice mailbox, I deliberately did not return the call. Instead, I left YM messages explaining why things have changed. And like I said before,"Sometimes, we have to let go or give up someone who means a lot to us, because we think, it is the best thing to do".It was not an easy decision to make: to finally cease to communicate, for fear of getting hurt even more in the end.

Just a few minutes ago, I read my YM offline messages, and there, I saw my very special friend's touching words, the flashbacks, the very sweet memories built over 11 months, the good times and the bad, the parting words, the final act of kindness...And the next thing I knew, my eyes got blurry, as tears start welling down my face. My chest began to tighten up, and yeah, I must admit, it hurt so bad. I grabbed my cellphone, looked at the last time he left a voice message until he finally decided it was about time to give in to my request to "let go". It read, 11:06 p.m., the 16th of July, 2007. I replayed the rest of his messages, and tears flooded my face all the more. For some reasons, I did not press the "delete" button as yet, and I don't know why. I know, there are a lot of things that we probably "delete" the usual way, but there are wonderful people and things we cannot erase from our memories, and most of all, from our hearts.

I keep telling myself, this is just a normal phase..I'LL GET OVER THIS. I'll be fine...just fine. But, God! I miss ___.

I'll end this emotional blog by saying: "If you truly love a person, set him free. If he was meant to be yours, he'll find his way back to you. If he doesn't, he never was."

Thanks for reading this. You actually ALL help me feel better.

Just call me ELZ

betrayed4solong 64F

7/18/2007 8:09 pm

Sis,

I know what you are going through. It's so hard to really delete them from our life. Time and time again. But, something out of the ordinary drives us back to that special memory. Yes, if you truly love that person set him free. Easier said, but really hard to do.

pinoylover1 74M

1152 posts
7/18/2007 9:26 pm

it sounds like the person you set him free is not ready for a long term love affair...don't look back...just move on...to the greener pasture...

Cherish_Amour 66F

196 posts
7/18/2007 9:35 pm

Dearest Elsa, I haven't been here for quite some time, then, I come and read this! I am sorry - but you know what? You are the one who knows all the circumstances, your situation, etc., so if it felt right, then your decision must be right!

Yes, memories are there to go back to for reminiscing, whenever you feel like it, OR, as time has healed the wounds, you might not even care about looking back to reminisce But, believe me, sweeter and more wonderful memories will come for you to cherish...and the hurt will go when that time comes

I may not visit here often but please know that I am just a ym or email away, my dearest friend!