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Blogs > eb1209 > THE MANY FACETS OF ME


eb1209
23211 posts
8/13/2017 1:04 am
I Hate Myself...


I had so many chances to make my life probably much better with a companion. But the so many years of being alone had made me feel " I didn't need anyone ". I hurt many men indirectly and directly by rejecting them directly and indirectly as well. I did not want to take chances only to fail and get hurt again. I did not want anybody to control me or dictate the things I need to do. Over the years, I feel self-sufficient and un-needy. It had always been my excuse that I am not the only one in this world who is single anyway. My experiences in life made me believe that I am stronger than any usual woman because I survived many crisis in my life. To some, they may think that I am arrogant. But to those who know me well, it is actually a sign of cowardness and distrust. My heart may be cold but it is not frozen. It just needs to take some risks. Do you really think I like to hurt and reject men? As picky as I am, no, I don't. I know exactly how it feels to be rejected and I hate myself when I do that. Specially to those who may have been the " One that got away ."
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

8/13/2017 1:06 am

 And here I am again, venting....
Just call me ELZ


ccdomonic 73M
225 posts
8/13/2017 5:40 am

 venting is good it stops things being bottled up inside of us and lets out the frustrations of life
hugs


eb1209

8/13/2017 12:39 pm
    Quoting ccdomonic:
    venting is good it stops things being bottled up inside of us and lets out the frustrations of life
    hugs
Thanks for keeping me company, CC!
Just call me ELZ


TessRb 64F
7258 posts
8/13/2017 3:40 pm

 Elz,

Finally, got in. Glad u didn't go chasing after love. Because we all know too well if it's meant to be it will happen. Leave it all to God. I'm happy now in this part of life. My grand babies make me happy❤️🙏👏🎉😍😘👵
Greatest feelings in the world when two souls profess a love for each other...


eb1209

8/13/2017 4:08 pm
    Quoting TessRb:
    Elz,

    Finally, got in. Glad u didn't go chasing after love. Because we all know too well if it's meant to be it will happen. Leave it all to God. I'm happy now in this part of life. My grand babies make me happy❤️🙏👏🎉😍😘👵
Thanks so much for the visit Tess! You should blog again....Take care!
Just call me ELZ


ccdomonic 73M
225 posts
8/14/2017 3:52 am

 as always its a pleasure elz


eb1209

8/14/2017 6:43 am
    Quoting ccdomonic:
    as always its a pleasure elz
Have a great week CC!
Just call me ELZ


ccdomonic 73M
225 posts
8/14/2017 9:21 am

 i will try my best elz
have a wonderful one to with the grands


eb1209

8/23/2017 12:39 pm
    Quoting oceancityjui49:
    Perhaps one day you will open the gates to your castles' wall and take a chance if the right one comes along. If you are attracted to someone and you have common interests in my eyes it is worth taking the risk. Nothing ventured, nothing gained, I know it is a cliche , but it is true.....
    Someone to love and trust you, without the need to control you or tell you what to do. You are a strong independent woman who doesn't NEED a man to support you, but don't we all want someone special to share dinners, cruises, travel, walks on the beach, and just that special one who can light up your day with a smile to welcome you home. If you never let that gate down a little, as you say,,,,,,, you may miss "the one that slipped away"...... Peace
Hi there! ...You are absolutely right! and I guess, I have an opportunity to do just that in the next couple of months...I am meeting someone who is a relative of a very close friend...Thanks so much for gracing my blogs.. Take care!
Just call me ELZ




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